The Desire Map : Rapid Fire Starting!

I need to give myself more permission to…

just relax and veg, without feeling guilty for doing so; to trust that things with work out, financially and otherwise; to not worry over things I cannot control.

Prompt #4 : Beauty

How have your standards of beauty shifted in the past year?

I have allowed myself to consider myself beautiful, consistently in spite of my size. I keep working on feeling beautiful and happy with myself. It’s a struggle, particularly with the ingrained lessons that “if you’re fat, then you can’t be beautiful and no one will love you” that I grew up with from my mother. Otherwise, for others, I still have the same ideas of beauty.. at all sizes. 🙂

New Year Revolution : Getting To Know Me!

Revolution in the New Year!

GETTING TO KNOW YOU…

I am… dreamer, lover, wife, friend, pet momma, teacher, student, adventurer, free spirit, explorer, artist, reader, writer, technophile, poet, me.

I value… life, love, trust, mother earth, nature, friends, children, students, teaching, passion, spirituality, freedom, being true to myself.

I believe… in being true to myself, in earth based spirituality, that we are all connected, in sending out the most positive energy you can, in energy healing such as Reiki, in using nature to heal yourself, that life is a learning experience for our souls, that we live multiple lifetimes in order to continue growing, our life is just reflection of what is beyond, in my dreams, in myself, in my intuition, in the universal energy which we are all part of, in the future.

I want to be more… active, trusted and respected, uninhibited, courageous, full of energy and stamina, open, intuitive, joyful, fertile, in charge, secure, stable, uncluttered, relaxed, nourished, trusting, rested, heard, understood, appreciated and at peace.

I want to be less… in pain, scared, overwhelmed, misunderstood, tired, unhealthy, sore, stressed.

I want to feel… passionately and unabashedly me.

I am ready for change. This year, the main thing I want to transform in my life is… how I procrastinate on most things I want to finish or accomplish.


The Desire Map : Rapid Fire Starting!

Other than time or money, what I need more of right now is…

Sleep. (I seem to need over 9 hours each night!)

De-stressing. (Since tomorrow is the first day of my new teaching job, I’m nervous as heck and stressed, even though I am a confident teacher. I woke up from my nap today with a stress dream about tomorrow.)

More fruits and veggies and healthy proteins. (Finances have been super tight the past month, because up until now I was only substitute teaching, and there was a lack of hours around the holidays. As a result, we haven’t been able to buy more healthy options due to cost. Welcome to Alaska in winter!)

Prompt #3 : Writing

What piece of writing are you most proud of from 2013? How does this piece differ from your other pieces?

I haven’t written any poetry whatsoever in the past year, but I did journal more often towards the end of the year, so I am proud of this.

The Desire Map – What I Desire to Feel

Essence & Spirituality

The Desire Map – What I Desire to Feel

Creativity & Learning; Relationships & Society

The Desire Map – What I Desire to Feel

Livelihood & Lifestyle; Body & Wellness

The Desire Map : Rapid Fire Starting!

Right this moment, I crave…

I crave stability. (I just got a temporary job for this semester teaching, and I want to get a permanent position this fall.)

I crave peace. (Too much familial drama, and financial stress.)

I crave cleanliness. (I am overwhelmed by a messy home.)

I crave too much sugar. (I need to detox. I become too easily addicted to sugar.)

I crave sleep. (I’ve been very tired for the past month.)

Prompt #2 : Highs and Lows

As you reflect back on the happenings of 2013, what were your high points and what were your low points? What do you notice as you look back on the year as a whole?

Changes, changes, changes. I fell in love. I became certified as a teacher in Alaska. I left my job in Salem, Oregon teaching to move to Alaska. I became engaged. I didn’t get two teaching jobs I interviewed for, but out of that blossomed a regular building sub position. The third interview was the charm, and I’m starting teaching 8th Grade Language Arts and Science on Monday. More good than bad. Let’s hope that trend continues for 2014!